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She               sprints               from               the               bathroom               giggling,               she               frozen               in               the               moment               like               a               snapshot,               black               curls               spilling               over               her               shoulders               contrasting               against               the               white               robe               she's               put               on               just               to               humor               me,               long               silken               Victorian               cut,               eyes               sparkling               behind               the               dark               waves-               the               moments               broken               when               she               twists               her               ankle,               bends               to               rub               it               raising               white               foot               like               an               uncoordinated               flamingo               she               wobbles,               black               painted               toenails               disappear               between               her               fingers,               she               tries               to               rebalance               stepping               on               the               robe               and               falling               hard               on               her               ass.

I               try               not               to               giggle.

Hard.

Fail.
               She               sits               there               against               the               plush               carpeting               still               rubbing               her               ankle,               black               curls               hanging               in               her               face,               iridescent               eyes               veiled               under               long               lashes               and               I               don't               know               if               she's               looking               at               me.

She's               crumpled               like               a               pale               skinned               china               doll               tossed               haphazardly               and               showing               no               signs               of               rising               so               I               move               off               the               bed               towards               her               but               she               waves               me               away               and               rolls               to               her               knees,               presses               one               hand               to               the               floor               the               other               to               the               wall,               slowly               lifting               herself               as               the               robe               billows               around               her               like               sunny               day               clouds               and               I               note               she's               walking               on               her               toes               again               like               she               always               done-               as               if               she               was               born               in               a               pair               of               silvery               stilettos,               most               times               she's               the               most               graceful               thing               I've               ever               laid               eyes               on.
               She               lay               beside               me               on               the               bed,               a               collapse               against               the               sheets,               her               body               warm               under               my               arm               she               nuzzles               her               head               beneath               and               she's               staring               up               at               me               half               shielded               through               hair               and               lashes               and               pillow               and               arm,               face               flushed,               I               push               back               her               ringlets,               hands               travel               over               her               shoulders               down               the               curves               of               her               body;               mountains               of               her               breasts               my               fingers               like               travelers,               across               her               rounded               stomach,               down               her               thighs,               I               slide               them               open               taking               in               her               heat,               she               naked               beneath               the               robe               I'm               pushing               away               from               her               as               she's               nuzzled               and               fussed               over.
               Her               porcelain               skin               smells               of               fruity               body               sprays               and               lotions               fresh               from               the               bath               she               had               lain               in               for               over               an               hour,               she               peering               up               to               me               under               my               arm               and               I               prop               her               half               onto               a               pillow,               the               toothpaste               and               mouthwash               doing               a               poor               job               masking               the               bourbon               she               had               gulped               down               while               watching               TV               and               whatever               else               she               had               consumed               while               lounging               in               the               lukewarm               waters               sprinkled               with               white               cottony               bubbles.
               Her               eyes               are               on               mine               and               I               try               to               ignore               her               drunkenness               as               I               graze               her               jaw               line               with               my               fingertips,               sliding               her               robe               back               around               her               like               a               security               blanket.
               "Tell               me               a               bedtime               story,"               she               murmurs               before               coughing.

"Please?"
               She               stops               stirring               ,               my               arm               back               around               her,               on               her               side,               face               half               pressed               into               the               bed               linen               and               my               fingertips               trace               down               her               back,               scratch               gently               at               strong               arms               I've               spent               so               much               time               enfolded               in.

She               is               lucid               but               her               body               lulls               a               bit               under               I               beg               her               to               lay               still               and               rest.

She               coughs               hard               again               and               her               stomach               heaves               for               a               moment               and               I               keep               rubbing               at               her               back               starting               story               time               to               take               her               attention               off               the               opportunity               to               barf               over               the               bedside.
               "Who               are               you               tonight?"               I               ask               softly               fingering               her               long               ebony               curls               each               night               it               changes               and               she               stars               in               mental               stage               productions               as               an               angel               or               sexy               bartender,               a               sassy               teacher               like               something               out               of               a               Van               Halen               video               dry               humping               a               desk               as               I               salivate.

She               is               the               savior               that               pulls               me               from               the               burning               building,               takes               the               bullet,               dies               in               my               arms               to               defend               me               each               night;               my               heroine               dream.

She               is               gentle               and               equally               hard,               sometimes               frolicking               through               green               fields               and               playing               on               tire               swings               at               parks               with               innocent               eyes.

She               is               the               movie               starlet               goddess               in               the               back               of               the               limousine               beckoning               me               inside               for               a               ride               that               I               will               not               soon               forget.
               "Something               better               than               what               I               am."               She               mumbles               to               me.
               She               complains               she               isn't               not               perfect               and               it               turns               me               on               more,               my               flawed               Pele               to               which               the               virgins               are               still               sacrificed               at               her               feet,               the               adversity               fueled               seraph               that               overcomes               some               tragedy,               the               martyr               that               throws               herself               on               the               bomb               to               save               the               school               children.
               "You               are               perfect               because               you               are               human.

Maybe               you               don't               always               get               it               right               but               you               learn               and               grow               from               your               mistakes."               I               stroke               her               curls.

"You               are               perfect               for               me               though,               perfect               because               I               love               you."
               She               smiles               and               its               radiant               and               another               snapshot               in               my               mind               and               I               tell               my               story               and               she               beams               up               at               me               between               the               gagging               as               the               alcohol               wages               war               with               her               stomach               acid               and               she               is               a               frisky               parking               lot               attendant               in               my               mind,               the               story               halted               and               I               kiss               her               sleepily               and               she               passes               out               in               a               warm               lump               next               to               me               and               I               pull               back               up               the               blankets.
               I               wake               to               use               the               bathroom               pulling               out               from               under               the               protective               shield               of               her               arm               thrown               over               me               peering               down               at               my               sleeping               beauty               whom               has               somehow               managed               to               vomit               all               over               herself               while               asleep,               tresses               caked               to               the               pillow,               down               the               front               of               her               robe,               I               sigh,               relieve               myself,               mop               her               up,               debate               waking               her               to               change               the               sheets.

I               don't               bother.
               She               is               in               freeze               frame-               my               Poloraid               of               a               good               day               and               we               are               enjoying               our               lunch;               sandwiches               she               insisted               upon               making               meticulously               cut               corner               to               corner               in               triangles               piled               thickly               with               ham               and               turkey,               swiss               cheese               spotted               with               mustard               and               mayo               even               a               pickle.

A               bowl               of               tomato               soup               perfect               for               dipping.

She               does               her               best               to               please               me,               twirling               on               the               her               toes               she's               perfectly               balanced               on-               I               again               exclaiming               she               would               have               been               the               perfect               ballerina,               perhaps               in               the               story               that               fills               my               mind.
               "Sit.

Eat               with               me."
               She               doesn't               answer               scrubbing               the               dishes               in               the               sink,               like               a               bloodhound               my               senses               drawn               to               her               raising               me               from               the               table               sucking               in               the               honeysuckle               sweetness               radiating               out               her               pores.

She               elbow               deep               in               the               soapy               germy               water               with               floating               food               particles               that               turn               my               stomach               and               I               dry               heave               a               moment.

I'm               tracing               my               fingers               up               her               forearms,               trying               to               divert               her               attention,               one               hand               raise               loosening               her               long               dark               ponytail,               I               spun               her               around,               the               other               hand               trying               to               free               a               plate               from               her               hands,               her               back               against               the               sink,               my               soapy               fingers               brush               against               her               bunnyish               nose               and               she               gives               a               low               moan               and               I               lean               in               and               smell               the               alcohol               on               her               breath               and               ignore               it.
               I               grab               at               her               hips               and               push               her               back               against               the               sink,               grinding               hard               against               her,               she               touches               my               face               with               her               fingers.

"               Love...you..."               she               pants               at               me               with               raspy               breath.

"Touch...me..."
               A               glass               slips               from               the               sink               and               splinters               all               over               the               floor               near               our               bare               toes,               she               pushes               me               back.

"Hold               that               thought,               I               will               take               care               of               it.

You               ok?"
               She's               so               protective               of               me.

She               kneels               on               the               floor               picking               up               shards               between               her               fingers               and               I'm               trying               hard               to               keep               her               from               touching               the               glass,               she               shoving               me               back,               pricking               her               finger               in               the               process               I               draw               it               to               my               lips;               tongue               rolling               over               her               wound               soothing               it.

She               smiles               and               collects               her               curls               back               into               a               long               ponytail.

"Weren't               we               in               the               middle               of               something?"               She               asks               me               playfully.

I               note               the               bottle               she               grabs               off               the               counter               but               this               minor               detail               can               be               erased               from               the               final               edit               of               the               scene.
               She               dumped               me               in               the               rain,               perhaps               to               wash               me               out               of               her               life,               perhaps               because               it               was               impossible               to               see               me               cry,               I               turned               from               her               walking               the               path               back               towards               the               apartment               we               share,               the               only               reason               for               the               tears               that               didn't               yet               come               because               I               knew               it               was               just               words               and               she's               wandering               the               streets               alone               in               a               sad               dance               but               I               wonder               if               in               her               head               she               hums               as               she               staggers.

I               drown               out               her               yelling,               not               sure               what               had               even               flared               her               temper               and               it               goes               from               piercing               rage               to               sadness               and               I               picture               her               slumped               on               the               sidewalk               the               dark               pools               of               her               beer               goggle               gaze               and               she               is               a               limping               ballerina               trying               to               stay               on               her               toes               only               to               end               up               dragging               unresponding               limbs,               first               the               left               then               the               right-               staggering               dance               indeed               needing               of               a               partner               and               I               half               race               towards               her               then               stop               needing               to               rehabilitate               my               own               senses               before               tending               to               hers               although               everything               in               my               body               tells               me               differently.
               I               don't               know               what               time               or               if               the               suffered               princess               ever               came               back               into               the               house               that               evening               but               I               make               passionate               love               to               her               in               my               dreams               and               her               angel               wings               spread               behind               her               elegant               backdrop               against               dark               curls               and               she's               laughing               the               way               I               remember               during               our               night               time               chats.

In               my               head               I               make               up               tonight's               bedtime               story               to               amuse               myself               and               she               has               saved               her               kingdom               from               impending               doom               and               all               cheer               and               rose               petals               rain               down               growing               blackened               and               dying               out               before               they               reach               the               ground               and               I               am               reminded               that               I               sleep               alone.
               My               stories               make               her               brave               when               she               is               not.

Midnight               vignettes               of               saving               grace.
               Gradually               the               talking               dries               up               in               a               relationship               and               you               come               to               the               point               realizing               you               have               eventually               said               everything               there               is               to               say               to               each               other.

I               don't               know               when               she               returned               to               the               apartment               because               she               was               a               ghost               floating               by               on               her               own               agenda               occasionally               brushing               past               me               in               hallway               and               laying               on               the               couch.

I               could               hear               her               break               down               at               night               openly               weeping               and               the               jagged               sobs               cut               through               the               air               like               steak               knives               penetrating               the               silence               of               a               bedroom               once               filled               with               the               harmony               of               excited               moans               and               squeals,               I               not               moving               from               my               perch               often               up               listening               to               it,               two               islands:               bed               and               couch               seeming               so               far               away               from               each               other,               my               heart               stretched               as               far               as               the               boundaries               allow               for               watcher               has               become               my               vocation-               if               I               dared               venture               any               closer               it               was               clear               she               would               only               run               away.

So               I               waited               out               the               madness               and               made               noises               to               fill               the               silence               masking               how               alone               I               felt               in               an               undefined               love               that               I               wasn't               sure               I               any               longer               shared.
               Then               as               suddenly               as               it               ended               one               sunrise               I               found               her               draped               across               the               foot               of               the               bed               watching               me               sleep               in               a               manner               as               if               she               had               always               been               there               but               I               was               in               no               mood               to               fight               and               ever               fiber               of               my               body               had               missed               her               so               I               sat               expectant               for               her               to               make               the               first               move.

Her               eyes               were               so               clear               that               morning               and               little               jags               of               her               panting               made               me               half               believe               her               nervousness               as               if               the               motivation               behind               her               sudden               stagger               hadn't               a               dress               rehearsal               and               she               didn't               lay               down               next               to               me               but               I               felt               the               warmth               of               her               tenderness               just               inches               away               and               my               fingers               ached               for               hers               which               lay               just               out               of               reach.

I               closed               my               eyes               taking               in               what               I               could               of               the               moment               and               I               felt               safe               in               knowing               that               at               least               I               could               depend               on               her               always               coming               back               in               one               form               or               another.
               She               didn't               speak               to               me               for               the               longest               time               so               the               sudden               intrusion               of               her               voice               against               the               silence               seemed               harsh               and               I               don't               even               know               exactly               what               she               mumbled               but               suddenly               her               fingers               laced               with               mine               and               she               in               a               pile               next               to               me,               then               wrapped               around               me,               arms               fusing               at               my               waist               and               I               was               motionless               because               anything               to               upset               the               tide               and               in               the               still               waters               I               was               floating               alone               without               a               life               vest               to               shield               me               from               an               sudden               turbulence               of               her               anger               but               it               never               came.

Instead               she               was               still               against               me,               I               craving               the               90               proof               reliance               of               her               kiss               but               that               didn't               come               either               but               with               we               were               snuggled               for               the               moment               and               I               tried               to               remember               the               millions               of               reasons               there               was               no               place               I'd               rather               be.

And               I               did               the               dance               alone               in               my               head               filling               in               dialogue               where               there               was               none               and               I               realized               the               only               words               she'd               said               to               me               since               she               had               entered               the               room               was               "I'm               sorry."               and               the               phrase               hung               mounted,               framed,               highlighted               on               thin               wire               over               our               heads               and               nothing               to               that               moment               mattered-               the               sleepless               nights               I'd               suffered               wonder               if               she               was               even               alive               and               most               likely               she               had               noticed               her               non               verbal               role               at               all,               the               screaming               exchange               in               the               rain.

The               situation               was               stripped,               gutted-exposed,               gritty               and               venerable               and               she               reduced               to               a               child               clinging               to               me               so               pure               and               hopeful               and               I               fingered               a               dark               ringlet               of               her               hair               that               lay               against               the               pillow               tainting               my               isolation               and               I               didn't               speak               either               just               drew               her               in               as               a               one               soaked               in               the               last               dying               days               of               an               Indian               summer               as               fall               crept               in.
               Late               afternoon               and               come               and               we               still               lay               stationed               on               the               bed,               mounted               to               the               down               and               cotton               sheet               of               luxury               and               she               still               sleep               nestled               up               in               a               cocoon               of               my               arms               and               blankets,               of               love               that               will               protect               her               slumbering               form               and               I               realize               this               is               the               only               time               I               don't               really               have               to               worry               about               her               running               on               self               destruct.

Hours               pass               the               negative               shows               she               waiting               lethargic               to               be               developed               and               if               I               do               bring               her               to               life               she               will               only               pull               back               away               from               me               at               some               point.

So               I               take               what               little               I've               been               given               tracing               over               tired               flesh               with               fingertips               like               paintbrushes               anointing               her               flawless               features               with               lightly               scratched               icons               of               my               faith               that               this               too               will               pass               because               nothing               in               the               time               I've               loved               her               has               ever               stayed               the               same               for               too               long.
               "There               once               was               a               girl               with               the               power               to               do               so               many               great               things,"               I               said               my               story               a               monologue               to               myself               rather               than               something               shared               but               she               slightly               shifted               and               I               heard               the               familiar               gurgle               of               her               empty               stomach,               the               slight               cough               that               came               when               she               wasn't               drinking               and               in               response               her               insides               erupted               into               angry               spasms               attempting               to               dry               heave.

"She               has               to               believe               in               herself               though               and               stop               blaming               her               problems               on               things               she               can't               not               change.

So               one               day               for               her               efforts,               she               was               granted               a               magic               wand               to               do               with               whatever               she               liked               the               only               consequence               was               that               it               was               a               temporary               fix               and               come               morning               whatever               she               wished               for               will               be               washed               away               with               the               morning               dew."               I               stroke               at               her               curls,               her               breathing               changing,               fingers               tracing               across               her               temple,               skin               a               bit               feverish               which               I               monitor.
               "What               did               she               wish               for?"               She               mumbles               half               into               the               pillow.
               "You               tell               me."               I               say.
               "For               you               to               hold               me               like               its               the               last               time.

Like               you               will               never               let               me               go.

Like               we               are               ontop               of               the               world               and               I               could               slip               at               any               moment."
               "Don't               you               want               something               different?

To               see               the               world               or               to               have               wealth               or               power?

Something               more..."               I               didn't               press               the               issue               only               because               I               secretly               like               the               unselfish               nature               of               her               answer               despite               its               underlying               sadness               stating               its               obvious               nature,               when               I'm               awake               I               slip               away               from               you,               I               only               belong               to               you               in               those               hours               before               bed               when               everything               halts               and               comes               crashing               down,               when               eternity               is               measured               in               caressing               beneath               sheets               and               quiet               whispers               and               sounds               of               bedsprings               settling               into               position.

Those               golden               hours               when               nothing               else               matters               and               we               exist               only               for               each               other.
               "No,"               She               said               repositioning,               drawing               me               up               against               her.

"That's               what               I'd               wish               for.

Tell               me               more               of               the               story."
               You're               right               next               to               me               but               I               need               an               airplane               to               get               on               the               same               wavelength               as               you               tear               about               the               kitchen               systematically               slamming               one               cabinet               after               another               until               the               noise               hurts               my               ears               and               I'm               squinting               but               its               early               noon               and               the               other               sounds               outside;               children               racing               down               the               sidewalks,               trains               like               silver               streaks               forging               a               path               through               cold               dead               air,               car               on               the               stretch               of               highway               that               ran               just               to               the               left               of               the               complex,               I'd               take               the               pfffft               huffed               and               slamming               cabinets,               thank               you.
               Knowing               better               than               to               offer               help,               I               turn               the               television               a               little               louder.
               She               floats               through               the               pub               precise               as               a               sound               wave               a               straight               beeline               to               the               table,               crowd               stepping               aside               for               her               as               if               awestruck               by               her               radiance.

It               wasn't               my               place               of               choosing               but               I               was               proud               to               be               at               her               side,               she               handing               me               another               concoction               she               had               mussed               over               while               waiting               to               be               served,               dipped               her               fingers               into               slurping               up               the               liquid               slowly               off               them               tongue               swirling               suggestively               around               her               fingers.
               "That's               not               how               I               asked               that               jerk               to               make               this               for               you."
               "I'm               sure               its               fine."               Even               if               it               wasn't               I'd               drink               it               anyway.
               Where               every               moment               in               her               presence               is               slow               motion,               I               find               a               way               to               fast               forward               through               the               bar               scene,               my               mental               Tivo               bookmarking               the               finer               moments               making               out               on               the               train,               forgoing               her               urgent               vomiting               on               the               platform               as               we               exit,               to               unbridled               lovemaking               on               the               bed               and               tonight               she               suggests               to               me               an               idea               for               a               story.
               "Hoe               come               you               don't               ever               tell               me               a               story?"               I               ask.
               "I               read               to               you               all               the               time."               She               smiles.
               "I               mean,               you               know               what               I               mean."
               "Ok,"               She               giggles               sitting               up               on               the               end               of               the               bed,               eyes               peering               up               at               me               from               behind               a               loose               tendril               of               her               cherub               curls.

"This               is               a               story               about               the               most               wonderful               person               I've               ever               know."
               "Do               I               know               them?"
               "I               think               you               do."
               "Why               are               they               so               great?"               I               ask.
               "Because               my               beautiful               bitch,"               She               smiles               again               and               the               heavens               open               to               the               sound               of               her               giggling               and               she               is               ethereal               for               the               moment               and               spellbound               I               lay               at               her               feet,               messiah               of               the               tiny               pink               and               grey               room               with               chilly               air               from               a               partially               opened               window               where               drapes               sway               on               invisible               fingers               of               the               wind.

"You               could               have               walked               away               so               many               times               when               things               got               bad,               but               you               didn't.

You               won't               ever               leave               me."
               The               words               sound               like               a               death               sentence               despite               the               cheer               of               their               content.
               She               smiles               fumbling               for               my               Dasani               bottle               on               the               floor               next               to               the               bed               choking               back               a               small               cough               that               if               well               lubricated               by               vodka               would               have               sent               her               scrambling               for               the               bathroom               to               heave               the               liquid               from               her               body               before               it               tainted               her               rotting               insides.

"You               love               me               and               I               love               you.

Always.

Forever."
               "Always.

Forever."               I               repeat               although               sometimes               forever               feels               to               long               and               I'm               doing               consecutive               life               sentences               and               my               biggest               fear               is               somehow               she's               going               to               hurt               herself               out               there               in               the               world               and               I               was               going               to               be               the               last               to               know.
               She               feels               insecure,               naked               as               if               sky-clad               primal               urges               most               of               us               retain               beneath               domesticated               fronts               has               missed               the               train               with               her,               even               the               most               most               intimate               moments               shielded               by               blankets,               she               whines               she               is               afraid               to               disappoint               me,               that               I               will               leave-               yet               today               and               well               fueled               on               alcohol               she               is               cruising               the               house               in               t-shirt               and               panties               like               a               second               skin.
               She               was               making               me               some               sort               of               meal               in               the               kitchen               clattering               dishes,               I               laying               on               the               couch               watching               her,               she               is               radiant               sucking               on               a               red               popsicle               purring               to               me,               I               turn               up               my               MP3               player,               Guns               N'               Roses,               Duff,               Axl               this               time               backing,               my               eyes               on               her,               she               drops               her               popsicle               on               the               floor               turning               to               me               its               five               o'clock               somewhere               but               still,               she's               been               past               her               prime               for               hours.
               Maybe               I'm               ignoring               her               because               she               is               yelling.
               "Its               not               my               fault!"               She               is               slamming               things               around               in               there               and               her               voice               sounds               far               off               like               she's               talking               underwater.
               I'm               not               saying               anything               back               and               its               funny               sometimes               how               songs               come               on               at               just               the               right               time               so               poignant               the               words               I               should               be               saying               as               I               brace               myself               for               her               attack.
               Up               to               my               neck               in               sorrow/               the               touch               you               bring
               She's               never               violent               to               me               and               I               watch               her               unwind,               usually               the               mood               goes               from               giddy               happy               drunk               to               a               more               distraught               victim               of               circumstance               to               a               breakdown               that's               not               exactly               rage               but               she               lights               a               cigarette               and               stands               over               me               and               I               see               her               lips               moving               but               I'm               not               listening               to               what               she               is               saying.
               I've               been               the               beggar/I've               played               the               thief/I               was               the               dog/they               all               tried               to               beat
               She               is               a               news               program               on               mute               saying               something               and               I'm               feeling               terrible               but               she's               killing               me               softly               with               her               eyes.
               Your               stupid               girlfriends               tell               you               that               I'm               to               blame/well               their               all               used               up               has               beens               out               of               the               game
               Leaving               her               would               kill               me.

I               can't               I               can't               even               though               it               chokes               me               sometimes               knowing               that               something               has               to               change               that               I've               fended               off               denial               for               too               long.
               I               tried               to               see               it               your               way               won't               work               today
               I               close               my               eyes               tight               thinking               I               can               drown               out               the               looming               figure               overhead,               she               won't               hurt               me.
               If               they               knew               half               the               real               truth/what               would               they               say
               I               still               see               her               shadow               under               my               eyelids               but               she               is               drawing               away               done               yelling,               sitting               in               the               corner               I'm               guessing               drinking               something,               smoking               maybe.

She's               told               me               many               a               time               she               may               just               kill               herself,               that               I               may               come               home               one               day               to               see               she's               gone               too               far               in               the               bathroom               walls               splattered               in               blood               and               she               has               cut               open               her               wrists               and               liberated               her               soul.
               Just               like               the               hooker/she               say               nothing               for               free
               I               roll               over               into               weak               self               induced               faux               slumber               hoping               she               will               just               go               away,               stop               knocking               over               things,               stop               crying,               stay               self               contained,               sometimes               though               I               just               wish               she               was               gone.
               Not               gone               as               in               out               of               my               life,               but               dead               so               I               don't               have               to               worry               anymore               and               the               thought               makes               me               want               to               vomit.
               If               you               are               the               one               dying,               why               is               it               only               eating               at               me.
               I               was               the               one               washing               blood               off               your               hands               as               you               sit               on               the               floor               gazing               up               at               me               with               pretty               eyes.
               I'm               cleaning               our               your               wounds               you               didn't               know               you               had.
               But               this               is               just               a               fantasy               that               plays               in               my               head               when               I               don't               know               how               to               mend               the               silence               so               I               wonder               if               you               even               realize               how               miserable               I've               become               when               you               close               yourself               off               to               me.

You               feel               so               far               away               on               your               half               of               the               bed               and               I               live               with               a               phantom,               sometimes               in               your               sleep               rolling               into               me,               taking               me               into               your               arms               out               of               old               habit               and               I               still               tell               you               stories               to               paint               the               darkness               with               the               shimmer               of               color.
               The               sad               thing               is               I               don't               think               you               even               realize               you               aren't               talking               to               me               grown               negligent               on               your               end,               I               wonder               when               I               stop               bowing               and               catering               to               you               completely               if               you               will               eventually               notice               the               silence.
               Then               one               morning               I               see               you               humming               as               you               pack               a               little               bag               of               toiletries               and               clothing               and               its               like               I'm               not               even               there               and               you               are               radiant               playing               like               its               hard               to               see               you               go,               and               its               terrible               that               I               want               to               tackle               you               to               the               floor               grabbing               at               your               pant               leg               tugging               you               back               into               my               arms.
               The               story               I               told               you               in               your               sleep               made               you               smile               as               if               you               could               hear               me,               fingers               tugging               slightly               at               your               dark               ringlets,               my               dying               angel.
               With               no               choice               I               let               you               walk               out               the               door               pretending               not               to               notice               that               no               words               pass               between               us               and               I'm               wondering               if               inside               you               are               calling               out               for               me               to               chase               you               but               I               give               you               your               independence               because               if               I               let               you               go               out               of               love               and               you               come               back               to               me               it               was               meant               to               be.
               It               wasn't               even               two               hours               until               you               are               beneath               me               at               first               on               the               bed,               then               the               floor,               positions               changing,               limbs               tangled               and               the               wash               of               tears               on               your               frozen               cheek               like               snowflakes               and               I'm               grabbing               at               your               hair,               you               biting               hard               into               your               lower               lip               to               not               cry               out,               scratching               and               fighting,               lovingly               with               each               other,               shadowboxing               each               movement,               the               crush               of               her               lips               against               my               neck               and               I'm               screaming,               pawing,               begging               for               her-               the               most               I've               heard               her               say               to               me               in               over               a               week.
               "I               love               you...love..."               She               moans.
               I               fuck               her               like               its               the               last               time,               like               I               will               never               let               her               go.
               "I'm               going               to               stop               drinking."               She               takes               my               hand               between               hers               licking               my               fingers.

"I'm               going               to               stop               just               for               you...just               for               you               my               dear."
               She               seems               sincere               wrapped               up               in               my               arms,               grabbing               a               book               off               the               nightstand               reading               to               me,               rubbing               my               hair,               finger               tracing               across               my               temple.
               "I               will               make               it               up               to               you."
               I               try               to               wave               it               off,               but               secretly               I'm               sick               and               craving               the               attention               and               I               suck               it               in,               breathing               her               life,               existing               just               for               her.
               And               I               let               it               all               go               away,               the               mistakes,               the               times               I               had               said               you               had               disappointed               me-               I               take               it               all               back,               I               have               the               rest               of               my               life               to               make               it               up               to               you.
               I'm               so               proud               of               your               many               talents,               of               who               you               are,               and               what               you               will               become               and               I               try               to               stay               updated,               and               useful               to               you               because               I               know               some               day               you               will               outgrow               me               and               I               fear               the               impact               that               you've               had               on               me               can               never               be...I               don't               bother               to               finish               the               statement.

It               scares               me               that               you               can               do               so               much               better               than               me               but               you               waste               your               time               for               some               reason               with               me,               maybe               just               out               of               humor.

Perhaps               you               are               weary               of               my               co-dependence               and               have               been               planning               escape               since               the               first               day.
               Its               true               that               I've               never               loved               anyone               like               I               loved               you               and               the               thought               frightens               me.

I               don't               want...
               You               interrupt               my               thoughts               "What               are               you               thinking               about?"               and               I               can't               even               answer               and               you               complain               my               breathing               is               raspy               as               I               lay               in               your               arms               and               you               offer               a               drag               off               your               cigarette               and               I               shake               my               head               but               you               are               so               beautiful               and               I               can't               take               my               eyes               off               of               you.
               She               was               a               throw               away               child               that               no               one               expected               much               from,               like               myself               I'm               told               and               maybe               that               is               why               I               admire               her,               long               for               her,               drawn               to               her               light               like               a               moth               and               everything               in               my               body               shuts               down               when               she               no               longer               shines.
               I               stare               at               her               wantonly,               my               philanthropist               sex               kitten               creating               something               in               the               notebook               splayed               across               her               lap               that               is               tilted               slightly               upward,               shielded               indirectly               from               my               prying               eyes               and               I               wonder               if               she               knows               her               words,               her               art               will               really               save               the               word               in               the               way               that               it               has               saved               me-               that               if               she               believes               enough...there               are               things               better               left               unsaid.
               Her               curls               spill               from               across               the               whiteness               of               her               neck,               tangled               in               chains               that               look               like               cheap               trinket               adornments               not               worthy               to               be               touching               such               a               true               jewel,               her               small               hands               fly               about               the               notebook,               I               long               to               be               that               paper               decorated               by               her               passion.
               I               feel               her               shifting,               slipping               from               me               like               water               running               through               my               fingers.

She               claims               to               have               curbed               her               drinking               but               it               only               means               she               drinks               away               from               me,               out               there               where               anything               could               happen               and               comes               home               to               me               behind               a               smile               and               lying               eyes               and               tends               to               her               artwork               and               I               wonder               how               much               of               this               stress               I've               caused               her               myself               by               wishing               me               both               lived               in               the               real               world               that               everyone               else               seemed               to               be               in-               the               non               magical               non               artist               people               that               can't               slip               between               realms               the               way               we               can,               watching               the               world               with               childlike               eyes,               seeing               beauty               and               renewal               in               each               breath,               terrible               pain               and               sadness,               hostility               and               fear               and               weaving               it               into               something               tangible               often               beautiful.
               In               our               bedroom               after               the               latest               war,               I've               only               seemed               to               save               myself.
               Her               love               was               a               boomerang               she               tossed               out               there               and               collected               back               a               million               times               over,               for               my               efforts               I               had               possessed               her               as               little               as               the               person               before               and               next               soul               she               will               come               upon.
               For               the               moment               I               thought               she               was               dead,               dear               god               she's               finally               found               a               way               to               end               the               nightmares               that               pursue               her               every               night               ,               her               insides               drown               and               sterilized               with               the               wash               of               alcohol,               the               blood               pools               in               her               cheeks               but               against               the               tile               of               the               bathroom               purple               and               blue               with               yellowed               grout               the               same               color               as               the               jaundiced               features               and               its               hard               to               distinguish               her               face               from               the               floor               if               her               iridescent               eyes               weren't               sparkling               like               the               diamond               necklace               she               always               wore,               those               curls               were               gone,               displaced               into               the               sink               and               parts               of               the               bathtub               were               I               imagined               them               falling               like               black               snowflakes               and               she's               shorn               them               viciously               it               appears               because               what's               left               of               her               hair               hangs               jagged               hardly               brushing               her               high               cheekbones.
               The               familiar               rise               and               fall               of               her               chest,               usually               very               pronounced               from               the               years               of               smoking               damage               wasn't               there,               her               breasts               like               valleys               rather               than               mountains               pressed               into               the               floor               where               she               lay               face               down,               but               head               cocked               to               the               right               enough               to               see               her               face,               a               strange               angle               making               me               almost               wonder               if               she               broke               her               neck               on               the               way               down.,               an               old               reliable               bottle               of               Jack               Daniels               standing               behind               it               like               a               grave               marker.
               And               here               I               stood               over               her               pale               flesh               the               scent               of               lotions               and               perfume,               hair               product               and               booze               lingering               and               I               wonder               if               this               will               always               be               the               scent               when               her               apparition               haunts               my               dreams               and               it               slowly               sinks               in               that               my               girlfriend               lay               on               the               cold               tile               unmoving               no               sign               of               how               her               passing               had               crept               up-               liver               explosion?,               heart               attack?,               alcohol               poison?,               choked               to               death               on               vomit?,               although               there               was               no               visible               trace               of               post               meals               clinging               to               her               chapped               unmoving               bluish               lips;               I               didn't               feel               a               thing.
               For               years               I'd               had               it               all               planned               out,               the               mental               preparation               that               went               into               living               each               day               as               if               it               would               be               the               last,               bedtime               stories               in               memoriam,               endless               kisses               breathing               the               life               back               into               her               soul               binding               it               a               day               longer               to               her               body.
               I               didn't               feel               a               thing               now               that               she               was               dead               but               relief.
               No               one               had               asked               me               how               I               suffered               through               her               drinking               and               erratic               behavior,               victims               apparently               can               only               wear               one               vest               of               circumstance               and               to               whom               I'd               complained               all               said               back               away,               leave               her               but               I               don't               think               they               fully               understood.

I               knew               then               my               only               escape               from               the               tower               I'd               built               with               her               wavering               love               would               be               if               she               had               left               though               death,               her               dependence               on               me               would               never               stop.
               And               I               felt               relieved,               not               happy               mind               you-               but               I               didn't               worry               about               how               I'd               move               on.
               Then               she               gasped               hard               and               her               soul               apparently               stopped               swirling               overhead               taking               the               opportunity               to               restore               her               life,               my               misery,               dive-bombing               back               into               her               empty               pores.
               "My               head               hurts."               She               mumbles               and               my               shift               as               nurse               maid               begins               again.
               She's               in               her               own               Wonderland,               the               drink               me               option               unmistakable               as               she               blindly               reaches               for               the               grave               marker               bottle,               blood               red               nails               like               talons               from               her               fingers               and               she's               weeping               and               complaining               and               tell               me               it               will               never               happen               again               and               she's               sorry               she's               flipped               out               and               scalped               herself               but               she               didn't               know               and               couldn't               control               it               and               she               didn't               understand               at               the               time               and               the               room               is               getting               smaller               and               her               hands               are               white               rabbits               flying               around               and               I               can't               follow               them               and               her               face               for               the               moment               glows               and               the               walls               are               caving               in               and               the               wash               is               like               a               cloud               of               smoke               and               I               want               to               take               the               red               pill               because               the               green               isn't               doing               anything               for               me               anymore               and               she               is               a               monster               spawning               before               me               ,               my               nemesis               pawing               at               me               trying               to               yank               me               ontop               of               her,               "I               want               you...I               need               you"               and               she               is               a               sea               of               limbs               crashing               over               me               and               I'm               struggling               against               the               tsunami               of               her               affections,               head               struggles               above               the               water               and               I'm               slipping               and               the               demon               that               breaks               out               of               her               skin               all               fiery               wings               and               horns               consuming               the               angel               inside               and               she's               an               archenemy               stabbing               at               me               each               kiss               and               nibble               is               an               attack               on               me               and               I'm               dying               beneath               her-               "I               LOVE               YOU!"               and               the               voices               are               screaming               in               my               ear               and               I               am               done               fighting               and               let               her               take               over               me               and               the               parasite               slips               under               my               skin.
               I'm               loosing               myself.
               She               is               fused               to               me,               conqueror               and               goddess               and               through               the               tangle               of               her               worming               her               way               on               top               of               me               and               before               I               know               it               I'm               in               her               too               and               her               long               lashes               brush               my               cheek               sweeping               silver               tears               down               her               cold               cheek               and               she's               telling               me               she's               going               to               change               for               me,               that               she               loves               me,               lives               for               me,               will               die               alone               and               instead               of               sinking               comfort               that               I               was               originally               after               for               myself               I               see               a               flash               of               her               radiance-               she's               still               the               most               beautiful               girl               I've               ever               laid               eyes               on.
               "You               want               to               hear               a               story?'               she               asks               me               mid               tryst,               wriggling               on               the               cold               tile               floor               like               provocative               lizards               shedding               their               skin               between               the               friction               we               create               and               she's               saying               this               biting               into               my               neck               and               I               hope               she               bleeds               me.
               "Yes...oh               yes."
               And               the               fairy               tale               unravels               from               the               gilded               pages               of               her               mind               and               she               paints               and               illustrates               my               talent               and               beauty               and               loyalties               and               in               this               tale               she               is               a               poor               desperate               soul               seeking               the               salvation,               but               she               is               an               asp               clinging               to               me               and               we               are               both               crying               out               and               I'm               still               begging               as               she's               on               me,               the               story               leaking               out               her               mouth               as               she               narrates,               sucks,               tears               at               me,               she               still               crying               because               she's               sorry               and               I've               saved               her               and               she's               done               drinking.
               I'm               being               eaten               alive,               fed               to               her               in               ravenous               gulps               and               she               devours               me               with               both               mouths               simaltamously.
               The               shark               retreats               and               leaves               me               the               aftermath               in               blood               stained               water               and               at               night               her               tenderness               returns               and               nuzzles               and               the               ceremonial               licking               of               my               wounds               like               I               was               the               one               endangered.
               She               pulsates               in               a               swarm               of               hungry               red.
               I'm               laying               on               the               bed               watching               as               she               stumbles               across               the               room               towards               me,               iridescent               eyes               slightly               bloodshot               and               shorn               hair               mussed,               she               giggles               and               hums               incoherently               to               herself               or               maybe               me,               reaches               out               to               where               her               drunken               dexterity               thinks               I               should               be               but               her               fingers               brush               through               the               empty               projection.

I               sigh               to               myself,               watching               and               longing.
               She               is               the               most               beautiful               thing               I've               ever               seen.






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      ...all Spencer could do was run up and down the fence, occasionally poking his nose through holes in the ground beneath. Spencer was a barker, too...
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      ... discuss nose piercings in... to get pierced as part of pre-marriage.... A small diamond stud seems popular...
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      ... has a tiny diamond and she looks just as beautiful today with the piercing as she did before...of Getting My Nose Pierced? okay...
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      ...! the actual piercing did hurt, but not as...i have a little yellow-gold diamond stud, very pretty. i ...new look trousers , nose piercing , nose stud...
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      ...any of my readers have their nose pierced? I've been planning to...for one of these tiny little diamond studs to be there. I also...
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